This Weekend

So it's kinda been a long weekend. I don't know exactly why. I've kinda had a headache since Thursday afternoon, which sucks and isn't really that surprising considering the last week. I don't really feel like I'm where I should be in a lot of places, and that's a little frustrating for me. Ok really frustrating. It's like all I want to do is get these things right, but I can't/don't know how/don't have time, so things continue unsaid and not understood, and it's continually wearing and tiring and yet I can't do anything cause of why I said before. What a predicament. And at the same time it's not really. I'm fine. I have a roof over my head, food in my belly, an able body, safety, leisure time (even though I tend to think I don't), opportunity, romance, family, God, and people who care about me. God is good. He has amazingly blessed me, and I should spend more time on my knees thankful about that than worrying about the rest of my life or medical school or big exams. Sigh. God teach me to view the world and my life through Your eyes; to rejoice at the things You rejoice at and have my heart break at the things that break Your heart. Shape and mold me to be more like You.
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